all mine, all mine / 10.25.2023
Buenos días!
I originally had a completely different playlist prepping y’all for halloween (link at the end). But after a conversation with my mutual @tidesofyouth about how we’re both scorpios who feel everything so heavy around our birthdays and just get so emotional — I decided to lean into that in the form of a playlist. So here’s to some of the songs that I hold deeply close to me.
all mine, all mine
Las Mañanitas by Daniel, me estás matando — Because it is my birthday week this is the only version of this song that I wanna hear.
Neighbordhood #1 (Tunnels) by Arcade Fire — The first song I heard by Arcade Fire was Headlights Look Like Diamonds from their EP. That was the song that got me hooked on Arcade Fire. However, their album Funeral defined so much of my time in highschool and early 20s. I listened to this album in its entirety while I was in the deepest depression ever all three times, while I was the happiest I have ever been, and while driving with my windows down blasting this album/song. I think this song is the perfect intro to their album. I always attributed this song to all the complexities of growing up and becoming an adult without ever feeling like an adult. This song and album have such a special place in my heart.
Hold On by Alabama Shakes — I listen to this song every single time it’s around my birthday. I felt it so deeply when I turned 22 and that lyric came up, “Bless my heart, bless my soul Didn't think I'd make it to 22 years old.” And now, I feel that verse a bit deeper. I feel like Calum from Aftersun (2022) — “Surprised I made it to 30.”
Déjenme Llorar by Carla Morrison — This is my Spanish version of It’s My Party by Lesley Gore.
Ribs by Lorde — Another song I’ve listened to each year around my birthday. The part that always gets me and why I listen to it each year are, “This dream isn't feeling sweet / We're reeling through the midnight streets / And I've never felt more alone / It feels so scary getting old.” I was raised Catholic so I am scared of death lmao
Dreams by The Cranberries — This is one of my absolute favorite songs in the entire world and if I could relive the first time I listened to it I would.
Riptide by Vance Joy — This song is supposed to be about finding someone, being in love, and all that jazz but I never did. Instead, this song just reminds me of when I was a dumb kid and thought the world was infinite and everything is possible. I remember my friend and I broke into a house next to our old highschool that was gonna get demolished. We broke all the windows, spray painted all the walls, and just wreaked havoc on this building. I have a scar on my thigh were I cut myself that night on something. The house ended up getting demolished a week later.
I’ll Believe in Anything by Wolf Parade — I have loved this song since 2010. It’s a song that always gives me chills all over. My favorite lines from this song are, “I said nobody knows you / And nobody gives a damn either way / About your blood, your bones, your voice, and your ghost / Because nobody knows you / And nobody gives a damn either way.”
Maps by Yeah Yeah Yeahs — I saw them live earlier in the year and I loved every second. They were super popular when I was in highschool, but I never went to any concerts growing up and it wasn’t until my adulthood that I started to go. Anyway, I first came across the acoustic version of this song from one of their live sessions. I wish they would upload an acoustic version to spotify because I think it’s so much better.
My Love Mine All Mine by Mitski — As I reflect on the last 10 years of my life. I’ve been in five serious relationships, one that took up 5 years. I don’t regret any of them because they’ve all taught me something. I do wish I woulda figured it out sooner, but whatever it is what it is. In the past 10 years I have also lost and gained new friendships. Every birthday and every new year, I am so happy with all the homies I got. In the grand scheme of life I never feel alone because I have so much love coming in from those foos. And like this Mitski song (what a fucking genius my wife is btw) all the love I got is mine. I am always so full of all love I get. I love fully, unapologetically, and honestly to anyone that’s willing to accept it— 'Cause my love is mine, all mine I love, my, my, mine nothing in the world belongs to me but my love, mine, all mine, all mine.
Here’s the spooky-ooky playlist in case you’re interested in it lol
I always like listening to surf rock/rockabilly songs during halloween season. Some of my favorite songs from that playlist are: Twin Peaks Twist by Messer Chups, The Cult Song by Shannon and the Clams, and Lucifer, My Love by Twin Temple.
-Ari
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