627 sq ft. / 11.28.2023
Buenos días!
Y’know how you tend to create feelings for inanimate objects? Like when you see a little trinket at a store and you pick it up to buy it. But then see that you left the other trinket there by themselves? And so you end up buying the other trinket too?? No? Yeah me neither…
This playlist is dedicated to my first ever solo apartment and really to the first time ever living alone. I have always shared a space either with family, friends, or roommates. So this was the first time I really got to create a whole space — not just a room — that I was happy to be in. I was able to decorate it the way I wanted and have as many trinkets as I wanted. Not that my parents never let me, but it was different.
In this space I got the chance to grow, to learn, and figure out who I am and what I want in my life (for the most part). I had this silver lining of the early pandemic where I got to transition in private. To then have my own space to literally physically and emotionally transition. And all of those things have brought so much healing to myself and little kid me.
When I first moved into my apartment I was severely depressed, like I called my mom bawling on the phone telling her I hated grad school and wanted to come home. My mental state was bad babes. But then I got my apartment, I was closer to my homies, and this silly little life proved to be worth living.
So, here’s to my first solo apartment that brought just as much joy into my life as it brought me rays of sunshine in the early mornings as I drank my coffee and looked out the window.
627 sq ft.
Little Life by Cordelia— I think I do like this little life… When I was a teenager I said to myself, “when I live alone I will buy a blue velvet sofa” and I did.
Tous les garçons et les filles - Slow by Françoise Hardy — Every Sunday morning while I made myself breakfast — usually french toast with bananas and strawberries as toppings. I would play this Françoise Hardy album first on spotify then eventually I bought it on vinyl. It was my Sunday ritual that I loved and will miss.
Heaven by Mitski — One of Mitski’s most romantic songs. But it just reminds me of every morning I had where I would french press my coffee and sit by the window, soaking the warm sun while drinking my coffee, and mentally preparing for the day.
Aaron by Palehound— I listen to the playlist as I write these little notes and omg I am tearing up LMAO This song is about being trans, “Your mother wanted to name you Aaron, but her body built you as a different man.” In 627 sq ft. I really got to grow and know myself in a very healing and peaceful way I never thought I would have. More importantly, I always had so much love and support from the homies that alone is more than I could have ever asked for.
Les Fleurs by Minnie Riperton — I fucking love this song. Here’s to all the seemingly small, seemingly insignificant objects and moments in life that brought me joy. I hope y’all start noticing those things too.
Fast Slow Disco by St. Vincent— This is one of my favorite songs by St. Vincent. I think it just really captures the slow and stagnant movement in life that we often take for granted. I always think, did I enjoy my time alone as much as possible? My friends would argue yes, because I am very much a homebody.
Tongue Tied by GROUPLOVE — Again, my apartment brought me so much happiness this is one of the songs that encapsulates that feeling.
Dreams by The Cranberries — I looooooooove this song. Top favorite songs for me. My apartment made me desirously happy so here is another song that holds true to that feeling.
Dancing On My Own by Robyn — I know I was alone, but I never felt lonely. That’s a big thing for me because growing up I felt very much alone so to not have felt that way while living alone is something I am really proud of. Especially because I didn’t look towards a romantic partnership to fulfill that. Yes, I did have my friends. But more importantly I had myself. I am just at peace with who I was, who I am, and who I’m becoming.
Dog Days Are Over of Love by Florence + The Machine — In the 627 sq ft. I found happiness and realized there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Godspeed by Frank Ocean — I'm gonna miss those big windows, soaking in all that sunlight every day. The way the morning sunbeams hit the floor and watching the leaves of the trees in front of the windows change color in the evening sunset – forever in the fabric of my memories. It's the little things I'll really miss.
Algo Está Cambiando by Julieta Venegas — My Saturn return is nearly at an end, so here’s to the changes that await me.
-Ari
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